How do I keep coming up with ways to explain things?

  The main difference between me and other’s who have undiagnosed ADHD? Support from a partner or family member.        There are many years of my life that I was able to function just as anyone else does, but those years my attention was focused on whomever I was with, and by just being with someone that lessened my symptoms dramatically, as it has many of my own family members who still don’t even realize they have this genetic disorder at all.      The main symptom of emotional dysregulation and the inability to calm down as quickly as others when agitated or when things escalate, only when I was unable to leave, are the main problematic symptoms that have occurred over and over again throughout the years.   They led to me spending 42 days total in a detention center.   The first time it was my sister who had me charged for domestic when I honestly told the officer I had no idea why I got angry.   The second time ...

  Yes, one‑word associations can help, and what you’re reaching for is actually very close to a known therapeutic tool. Why one‑word associations can help When you list single words tied to a person or relationship (e.g., “small,” “unsafe,” “intense,” “ignored”), you bypass some of the rationalizing and “people‑pleasing filter” and get more directly at your gut reactions. Seeing those words on paper gives you a quick x‑ray of what your nervous system actually took from the relationship, which is often different from the story you’ve been telling yourself (“it wasn’t that bad,” “I overreacted,” etc.). This doesn’t give “closure” in the movie sense, but it can create internal closure: “Oh. This is what it really was for me. This is why it still hurts.” How to use it in a structured way Try this as a short exercise: Write their name at the top of a page. Without overthinking, list 10–20 single words or very short phrases that come up when you think of: Them as ...

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This is my best guess as to why a certain part of my brain's future speech generator, is usually heard by me, as an external voice.      After all of the trauma and betrayal I endured in 2023-2024, I believe that something got short circuited.  So when I'm alone, or not focused on a project, I heard one voice that sounded like an external one.  The only thing it would do is change to different voices based on who I talked to last or what that particular voice was trying to convey at that time.  Most of the time it's like a stand up comedian, trying to make jokes or making fun of myself in a nice way, which I find refreshing LOL.      So imagine, your sitting by yourself and you can hear a faint voice that seems to be somewhat of a narrator of your life.  Now that your used to it, it does give me insight into the narration that it leads me down each night and it's usually just going over all the same details, doing what you ask?...