You know why people hate someone who can remember so much?

 

This is exactly why, because I remember every bit of good and mostly bad advice and more....

I can remember vaguely when my middle aunt took me to bona dea trails and we had to go back because of a black snake she saw but that memory is very fuzzy because I was in a stroller.  I could remember sometimes even when my mom and dad were trying to get me to speak.  I also remember my dad  taking a shower during a storm pouring down rain in the house that they started in thru HUD.  I also remember crawling thru those expandable tubes one christmas and when my grandmother gave me my first tv as a kid.  She put a tea bag in one present and the letter V in another and the TV was in the den.  One thing I didn't remember was how amie taught me to wear my seat belt but if she's right, she taught me the most effective way by brakechecking me in the driveway, and I would have applauded her teaching methods because she showed me in one second how important it is while my mother and grandmother griped her out, as if they could ever convince a 5 or 6 year old to wear a seatbelt its strikingly similar to trying to convince them they are wrong, they are simply going to have to learn the hard way just as i have.  While I was being watched by them i snuck away on my tricycle and was heading up to see my dad where he worked at the gas station but a kind stranger stopped and talked to me and knew whose child I was even thou I can't remember him.  The other thing that is crucially important here is that I have been the victim of 5 different physical altercation which I was the victim.  When kristen was 16 years old and I was having a pool party when granny was in colorado she came down with her then boyfriend just to talk crap about me and nothing else so I slapped her one time, that is the single only time I have ever put my hand on any female whatsoever, then her then boyfriend proceeded to get me in a choke hold and do you know what choking someone does to someone's adrenaline? It spikes and I was on a mission to hit him with something so first I grabbed a shotgun and had it turned around backwards then after they got that out of my hands I grabbed a bat and then they got that out of my hands and all the while all they had to do was make that buthead leave the property.  The cops weren't called then but the one time me and kristen have actually our 2nd wrestling match, I was telling the truth then too, I said "I didn't know why I got so angry" but now my mother tried to add details that did not happen because even that I could re-enact with very good accuracy to this very day and my family's way of working it out was putting me in jail instead of helping me figure out why I got angry out of the blue.  Then there was the time on the vacation where my sister was calling me and my daughter lazy and I jumped up and got in her face but with my arms to my side and she yelled for kevin and he came in with his arms outstreched to attempt to choke me to death but since I was so strong even thou he outweighed me by 100 lbs or more and even he and my dad struggled to get me out the door at what my sister started and watched and my mother made me bottle it up the entire ride back instead of showing even the smallest bit of empathy or listening skills,  prior to that I was awoken by 2 different ex's, one of which thought I was cheating on her but all I did was wrestle her to the ground then left to make it stop.  Same happened with the other ex whose grandparents said themselves they thought she was a crazy.  She tried to charge me with domestic violence when she started it and also woke me up just so she could start the drama and she was the one who was calling my dad every morning trying to get me in trouble and my dad never told me until years after the fact.  So what would all that tell you about how my family's secrets and their always on the wrong side of things due to their conformation biases I have proven that I can remember every single event even when my dad got on to me for smoking pot when I was 16 it was because kristen's friend jana parker went out and looked in my vehicle and found my pot, but then guess who started smoking pot shortly after? KRISTEN.  and what my dad said in the study was "did you even think about how this would affect us?" and I would ask him the same question today about his lack of empathy, 2 times physically harassing me and some how he gets away with this as recently as January of 2021 and June of 2024 because he refuses to ever listen, and he and kristen are just alike, they are built the same and me and my mother are more alike but when you isolate someone for that amount of time you can get them to believe anything you want, I bet you anything his epiphany was nothing more than he thought he knew better than the church he still attends to this very day.

So that's why my family wants me dead and has not been involved in my life whatsoever because I can remember every bit of what they said and did.  According to their track record of denial, dismissiveness, and outright not hearing the truth or ever wanting to hear the truth because they are so deeply held beliefs due to my sister's playing the victim and judy is the same way with david and I know this because I lived next to them for a year.  Kristen and Judy are the vulnerable narcissist's, my grandmother, father and now even mother are grandiose narcissist's as well as latisha and kyle.  Even Joseph and Jordan are compulsive liars (sarcasm is the same as lying because it's toxic for any work environment), but I believe Joseph is the worst of the 2 because I know what he did in 2001 and I know he lied about so many things and I'm not taking any of these lies anymore because that's textbook GASLIGHTING.  Even his girlfriend knows he is a narcissist and everything he does he does in excess.