The "Support Network"

March 3rd, 2024 9:12  pm :  

     Today I have proven to myself that my "support network" is the biggest hurdle in my life when I had a friend over to simply work on a project for them, in the hot tub room, out of my parents way and not being loud at ALL,  I was interrupted once and I walked out of the room to ask my mom nicely what it is she wanted to say and she said never mind so I continued to help my friend then I walked outside to inquire further what the problem was and what happened next is the saddest most pathetic attempt yet she said why didn't I ask to have a friend over, honestly what am I4?  We had only been here for about 30 minutes and she did not even notice us at all.   This environment is almost equivalent to Solitary in prison and I would do some research on it for them to just throw away but that has never changed anything in the past so why would it now?   It ended up in my friend having to see exactly what I have to deal with.  The only time they are happy and don't threaten to call the cops is when I literally do NOTHING.  In my opinion they are not Christian people whatsoever because I have told them how they could help time and time again but they will not listen to any conversation without belittling me, making fun of me or calling me crazy and even eye rolls or simply shutting down just like when I lived by those other evil people.  I've went from one solitary to another and they can't even ADMIT when they are wrong or even say sorry when they are wrong that is the most depressing part.  At least the walls I get to talk to over hear don't speak over me and don't judge and seem to listen better than anyone in my family has in the past 9 months, that's what's depressing and pathetic so I got an idea on my way back home, I'm going to record and upload to you tube every interaction I have with them so maybe one day or someone will realize what kind of environment and just how little these supposedly Christian parents emotionally support their own child so if something ever does happen there will be proof of what I go thru on a daily basis. Before today I had stayed in bed for almost 5 days straight literally, and no one asked me how I was or how I was doing or offered any support with the exception of feeding me when they go out to eat everyday.  If you can see that solitary or making me go places to see my friends is the same as it was over at those shit hole apartments when I wasn't forced into a negative interaction is just barely worse than how things are here.  It seems these days everyone just wants to tune out of everything and could careless about other people whatsoever then my parents are right there with those evil people.  When they learn how to actively listen, show empathy, validate, and just show me that they care in the slightest then they can do so by LISTENING for more than just a few minutes and also they can also know in order to get respect you have to get respect, and if they want to treat me like a 14 year old then I will most certainly act like one for them because if they want me to be successful and be able to get a job like I would love nothing more than to move away from these assholes and forget about them entirely but without being able to talk to my friends instead of sitting in this god dam room all the time just thinking in circles,  they have no idea what that does to a person and never will because they cannot listen at all and are forcing me to from now on record all interactions and upload them to youtube so everyone else can see how ridiculous they are as well, maybe one day they will also stumble across my channel and watch it too.

I'm  journaling my everyday interactions as best as I can remember with my "Support Network" just incase anyone who understands or is reading this might respond and help me either find out the truth or help my family understand how their disregard and lack of listening is affecting me.

*Update March 22, 2024:  I find it frustrating that when I ask my family to do something so simple as remove some unknown devices from THEIR starlink they are unable to do the simplest of things but when my mom asks me to say get her sister's meds for her I do it right away.  I think the GOLDEN RULE should apply here,  if they want me to literally tune them out then they should keep up the great job so far.  I have yet to have a single family member even so much as hear me out validate or let ME speak about the things that keep happening to me and that have happened to me over the past 8 &1/2 months.  It took 5 months to get my phone records and they are just unable to see how much i'm suffering.  I'm almost just tired of helping people all together and about ready to give up because all I've done is help people and be honest and what in the hell has that gotten me? NOTHING but stuck back in my old bedroom with no support, no one to talk to, and nothing that makes me happy at all.  It's sad when solving other's problems really does make me feel happy but until my problem is solved I can't solve anyone else's.

*Update March 21, 2024:  Today is the day I'm finally going to get the consult I have yet to receive by any lawyer as of yet and do one other thing of which I will not say.  They won't know where or when or even which Lawyer I will be contacting and cannot keep me from getting to the truth and get justice once and for all.

*Update March 20,2024 Wednesday:  I finally have a phone that I know LaTisha has never been near nor could have bluetooth cloned and have also learned by word of mouth how easy that truly is to do, as well as scary.  So now that I 1. have access to my phone records from last year and 2. have a phone that is not being illegally watched by LaTisha and her family, now comes the War which is a Civil Lawsuit after I get the first consult with an attorney since asking for one in November of last year.  One other thing on my list will be done tomorrow as well.  Oh for all those reading this a website/app called MSpy should be brought to the attention of the FBI or any government entity that can have it taken down due to how easily it is installed on the target's phone and it's invasive nature and inability to detect yet it says it's a family tracking app.  I tried to report it myself but the FBI ICD form won't allow a submission without certain fields filled in.

Most recently, on Sunday March 17, 2024 My mother came home from the store and said something about getting the Brightspeed turned off, I reminded her we had already done this a month or 2 ago but it quickly turned into her getting huffy and simply going inside rather than listening to what I had to say and guess what?  It turned out I was right about that just as I was about Kyle wanting to stay anonymous but that I could stay and yet I'm stuck in this hell hole I used to call home around family that won't listen or show any emotional support whatsoever.  Then shortly after I walked in and looked at the bill and saw that it was dated in 2023 I told her and somehow it was nothing short of a miracle when she was able to bring up my cell phone records that day as well only 5 long months from when I originally asked for them in November.  I have also yet to be able to consult with a Lawyer whatsoever due to getting pointed in the wrong direction or even worse more and more things keep happening that lead me to believe that my phone given to me by my dad from verizon was cloned due to a voicemail message from my aunt amie just popping up a week or 2 after I helped her with the spackle.  When she originally called me she asked me if I got her message and I looked at both text and voicemail and nothing was there but I helped her spackle her wall then the message she had left me shows up weeks later and according to my research that can be an indicator of a cloned phone, this would also explain why none of the 3 calls that could have been either lawyers or a bug sweep service were able to leave a message, if they did I didn't receive it at all and the one that said private I wasn't able to answer because I was driving at the time.  

      Until I'm able to at least learn the truth as to whether those I believe responsible either prove or disprove what I believe they probably did this will never be resolved because the whole point of a Justice System is for victims of crimes to get justice for any crimes committed against them and in the past 3 months I have only found out more and more evidence that things I told my mother were indeed true and still I get not a single family member who will take the time to LISTEN and not interrupt, while also trying to understand.  If this continues, they should know they absolutely will and should hold themselves responsible for anything that happens next when all I needed was someone to take up for me and help me find out the truth because if it's not true I know how and where to get help but if it is true then they will have let the most VILE evil people that I used to live next to get away with audio / video voyeurism for nearly 8 months.  I know the reason these people think they can get away with it mainly because if someone is watching me illegally or any other way and cannot respect other's privacy then these people deserve to have their privacy and freedom taken away as mine has for the past 8 months..... What happens next who knows but I'll keep this updated as long as it continues to happen and I'm yet to receive answers still to this day.