Since I have to wait another 2 months for a simple consult.......

  

    If it were up to me,  all the people actively involved in gaslighting/harassing me to near death should be arrested immediately pending judgement on their sentencing while my parent's, my dad should do 1 month even thou he said he would do 3 for obstruction and my mom should do a day to see how demeaning her old preferred way of drying me out when I used to drink, does to a person's mental health as well as their silent treatment and social isolation because without them here I could get better and I could also help my friend get better as well but as long as they are here I am being impeded from helping anyone whatsoever even myself.

These people have been the single biggest hurdle in my own efforts to get better and I'm TIRED OF THE LIES.

I wish this would come true otherwise i'm' starting to lose hope in humanity as a whole......

If at any time my parents had simply listened and talked with me this could have all either not started or been solved so quickly but since they are not interested in my health or anything to do with the people I hear on a daily basis they too are contributing to my problems when I needed someone to solve a problem.  Simple cooperation with me or just being good active listeners and communicating better with other family members rather than assuming things would have been the best way to solve this but since that is way tooo much to ask of them I'm still working on solving this myself......

In the meantime I can't help but ask myself why everyone in my life has never taken the time to truly listen to what's going with me and actually pay attention and truly listen so I would encourage them to watch the ted talk 10 ways to communicate better as soon as possible because throughout this past year not a single family member has listened to me more than 5-15 mins and simply talk about anything that was going on nor does it seem they are able to talk to each other either, so this is the best way to make them realize here at home, I'm only talked at and not listened to and I even get insulted by eye rolls and simply walking off when I do talk about anything yet I always listen to them and instead of being the asshole I want to be due to my treatment, I choose the high road and still help when they need help but when I NEED IT THE MOST they just tune me out, belittle my feelings or just ignore me all together.  So if you ever wonder why my parents don't have a clue what is truly going on with me it's due to that and being socially isolated just like I was over at the apartments we used to own.

I have been lied to by so many people (not family members) and am literally tired of these lies and also tired of people saying one thing then doing another so I guess honesty is very hard to find nowadays.  Like say what you mean and mean what you say, in other words if you say your going to or want to do something then actually do it and don't just talk about it.  I know everyone lies to an extent because everyone's perception of the truth differs but the one's that lie the most can even convince themselves that something is true even if it is not and has no proof or evidence to support it.  So if you lie to yourself enough you will begin to believe your own lies and begin to believe they are truths.  So take a minute to think about why it is you believe certain things to be true and if you want to grow as a person look for differing opinions so you have a full perspective to begin learning what the actual truth may be.  Don't seek out people who merely agree with you, instead seek out those who disagree but in a productive way.