I really wish I could get past this but without the help of my friends and the community I can't

 

Why I cannot get past the past currently

As of May 24, 2024 it seems like I'm stuck due to my honest gullible personality and my lack of self-esteem or self worth.  My father likes to talk but I can tell it's very hard for him to listen.  Like the TED talk says "Listen with the intent to Understand not REPLY".  My mother just walks around in a fog and Dad says he can't remember things that would be very important like the voicemail Judy left on his phone so speaking to him is literally pointless, especially since they can't take the time to even read the main or featured post of my blog and I've done all the research for them and they STILL don't understand anything.  They never ask me how I feel about things or how I'm doing which are open ended questions inviting the speaker to elaborate on a subject.  I know how to listen, understand, empathize, validate and put myself in someone else's shoes.  I could be an asset to anyone if I could just get some of the many people I have asked for help from to just think, who was there when you needed someone or something, who did you call?  There's so many people I've helped and could help due to my active listening skills and curiosity but it seems like everyone is so wrapped up in their own lives to stop and help me the one time I need it the most.  My parents don't understand I need to be around people not isolated,  I need my own space so I can talk to people and help them as well as get better myself because as long as i'm around people who have all the time in the world to listen but choose not to it's keeping me from being happy doing what I enjoy most, helping, teaching and solving other people's problems or at least giving them the best advice possible when they ask for it.  I have so many good idea's yet I talk myself out of them half of the time because if the people around me don't believe in me it basically brings my own belief in me down as well.  These are a few things I am good at or have done in the past...   Building PC's, Repair/Upgrade laptops and PC's, Detailing Vehicles, Changing my own oil and plugging my first tire, I've repaired my Washer and My dryer, I can install speakers and even amplifiers, I can clean just about anything like carpet in houses to automotive carpet, I maintain the vacuum's so they last much longer than your average vacuum, I rotate my own tires, and even added a fan to my truck to push air thru the K&N filter and it did slightly improve it's performance and cost nothing to me, it was just a fan and some wires.  I just wonder when this world is going to go back to normal where a person's word actually means something and promises are kept and family and friends stand up for someone who asks especially when they have presented them with so many instances they are correct and yet they always just dismiss it with no reason.  I say WHY????