This is the world from my perspective....

      I used to see the world through rose colored glasses, hopeful and nearly always optimistic but after what happened to me in the last year I now know people you may trust are capable of very evil things and I wish I was wrong but I can't find a scred of evidence to support that theory but I have found an astounding amount that has pointed me in their direction.   I'm so tired of being used and it's sad that honesty truely will get you know where even with supposed godly people.  All I ever asked for is answers or the truth and have gotten nothing but battered, blamed, seen so much blame shifting, and gaslighting it's not even funny.  It's just like the phenomenon when you get a new car and you start seeing that type of car everywhere, since my eye's have been opened to this gaslighting behavior by doing what I do best, RESEARCH, It's almost impossible not to see.  I've done everything right to my knowledge and it has been the most difficult knowing something and not a single person stand up for what's right, especially those I consider my friends to this day but then I ask myself "What are they doing to reciprocate my generosity?" and that is when I get sad, mad, depressed, all in one.  So if anyone does read this try to put yourself in my shoes and think what would you do in the situation I was in, in the past year of 2023.