What I've seen in society and My Family

that I know to be true

My Family problems and the simple ways they could do better

Throughout the past 7 years, my family's ability to communicate and listen to each other has slowly diminished. It started when my father had his epiphany of which I do not want to hear about until he can learn how to listen. I told him I helped him with HIS dreams of owning his own business for the past 20 years and asked him a few simple questions. One was who has he stood up for in his life besides himself or his wife, my mother? I also told him that when he is ready to listen, then we can talk but I realize that will likely be never because his only response was "ok" and for the who he stood up for I have yet to receive a response at all.

My mother and sister (both of whom have employee's to confirm their own biases due to the fact no employee will ever disagree with the person who is employing them) have been the rumor spreaders and even take joy in seeing other's suffer. This might be why the onlyone of two times (one she denies even thou I saw her green and tan suv and so did a neighbor across the street) I've ever seen my sister show up was a day she thought I might get arrested, since than I have distanced myself from her and not even attempted to contact her, so anything she has to say about me to this very day should be considered nothing but rumors or hearsay at the very most. The same should be done with what my mother has to say about me because neither (which both have fingers and can dial a phone and/or text, or even invite someone to have a open honest discussion) have contacted me in any meaningful way. I put it best when I was at my angriest due to withdrawl, dismissal, and gaslighting at the hands of the very people that tried to press charges that were ultimately dropped. They also like to just place blame on me and my aunts habits while continuing their own habits which are equal or worse in the gaslighting or silent treatment category. I would say to them, "What have you done other than just provide me with the little amount of money I need to survive by making me look like a problem when it is in fact, you that are the problem?"

My grandmother said once "after all we've done for you" and I would even challenge that and say "What about what all I have done for you?" While being paid barely above minimum wage for the 27 years I've spent wasting my time helping this ungrateful family all the while not asking for money half the time and trying to offer your daughter and granddaughter good ways to help the community in small ways yet all of you squabble over..... MONEY?"

I went to my grandmother only 3 times, the first time she got mad at me and wouldn't let me speak, the 2nd time she was watching football and didn't even look at me and said "They will do the same to you" which makes me wonder WHERE is she getting her information because I get mine from many different sources and perspectives. She also has her middle daughter to show her support and I believe my sister is the one who is informing her of only what she wants to hear without asking me or the youngest of the sisters even a single time "How are you" or "What's been going on" and actually listening. She has tuned me away and not stood up for her for many more years than I've been dismissed by whole family. I would ask her "Why would you stand up for the New landlord, of which, had a long standing property line dispute with your husband, my grandfather, over my unbiased opinion. I had lived at those apartments for over 12 years and how many times did I need you to stand up for anyone while you have just seen your youngest daughter as "a problem" instead of a person who was just asking for help. How would you have felt if she had actually succeeded in committing suicide one of the 3 times she was suicidal over the years?" This by itself shows how between the 4 of you neither me or her has been included in decisions made about our own lives, we have been uprooted without our consent and all our things thrown in boxes unorganized, how would you feel if that was done to you?

This is only the beginning of so many things that the family refuses to resolve while we still get taken advantage of over and over because of our lack of self esteem and lack of validation which is a direct result of how we are treated by the one's we should be able to depend on the most. So in summary of this portion.... try putting yourself IN OUR SHOES for a moment and think about how you would have handled being dismissed and not supported by anyone you thought truly cared about you...

If you have any thoughts or opinions from sources other than the same sources you have already been getting your misinformation from then I'm all ears, or please comment and I will listen to them based on how I feel, and if there is research to back it up and if these comments actually would help because unlike my aunt who has so many health problems that are worse than they should be, I am the most intelligent, un-biased perspective in this family because I know how to do one thing not a single one of you know how to do, LISTEN with the intend to understand and not to just REPLY.

The first time anything of this nature happened was on a vacation to Florida where towards the end of the trip, I stood up for my daughter when my sister was calling her lazy. What happened was I got in her face with my hands to my side and she yelled for her husband and instead of doing what I would have done which would be to simply stand in-between us, he charged in and proceeded to choke me for several minutes and at that time he was almost twice my weight but I was able to keep his arms far enough away from my throat that I didn't get choked, all the while my sister just stood and watched and never made a single attempt to stop it and my daughter watched as well which likely traumatized her. When someone attacks you instead of de-escalating a situation it takes a while to calm down but it took both him and my dad a good 15 minutes to wrestle this 150 lb guy out the door of the rental by the beach. The entire drive back I wanted to talk but both of my so called parents refused to even listen and that is the last time I cried in front of anyone and my daughter was in the vehicle as well. It took me a year to get over that without any apology's from any of them. That was about 7 years ago and I can prove it due to the photos on my google account which are dated as well. speaking of my sister here's some research for her:

Side Effects of Testosterone Implants in Females in Their Late 30s Over a One-Year Period

Testosterone implants (pellets) are small devices placed under the skin that gradually release hormones over time. While they are primarily designed to address hormonal imbalances, they come with various potential side effects when used in females. It's important to note that testosterone pellets are typically implanted every 3-6 months rather than monthly as suggested in the query, as they're designed for extended release.

Physical Side Effects

Testosterone pellets can cause several physical changes in women when used over an extended period like one year. These changes occur because testosterone is primarily considered a male hormone, though women naturally produce small amounts.

Skin and Hair Changes

When testosterone levels exceed the normal female physiological range, skin and hair changes are among the most common side effects. Women in their late 30s using testosterone implants may experience acne and oily skin as higher testosterone levels stimulate sebaceous glands to produce more oil1. This can lead to breakouts, particularly on the face, chest, and back.

Hirsutism, or unwanted hair growth, is another common side effect. Women may notice increased hair growth on the face, chest, abdomen, or back1. The hair is typically darker and coarser than normal body hair. These effects are typically dose-dependent, meaning higher doses or more frequent implantations may increase the likelihood and severity of these symptoms.

The good news is that these side effects are usually reversible upon reduction of dosage or discontinuation of treatment2. However, if testosterone implants are continued monthly for a full year, these effects could become more pronounced.

Voice and Body Changes

More concerning and potentially permanent changes can occur with prolonged testosterone use. Voice deepening may occur after several months of testosterone therapy, as the hormone affects the vocal cords12. This change is often irreversible even after discontinuing treatment, which is why it's classified as a more serious side effect.

Clitoral enlargement, while rare when testosterone is maintained within female physiological ranges, becomes more likely with prolonged use or higher doses2. Body composition changes may also occur, including weight gain and altered fat distribution to a more masculine pattern2.

Implantation Site Reactions

The procedure itself carries risks. Women may experience pain, redness, and swelling at the implantation site6. More serious complications can include:

Infection or cellulitis at the implantation site (<1% of cases)3
Extrusion of pellets through the skin (<1% of female cases)3
Bleeding or bruising5

With monthly implantations over a year, the risk of these complications would multiply as each procedure carries its own risk.

Hormonal and Reproductive Effects

Menstrual Changes

Testosterone implants can significantly impact a woman's menstrual cycle. Women in their late 30s might experience irregular periods or changes in menstrual flow3. For those approaching perimenopause, these hormonal interventions could potentially mask or exacerbate natural transitional symptoms.

Women who use testosterone without concurrent estrogen therapy may experience increased vaginal bleeding, particularly if they don't adhere to prescribed progesterone regimens3. This is an important consideration for monthly administration over a year-long period.

Sexual Function Changes

Changes in libido are frequently reported with testosterone therapy15. While many women seek testosterone supplementation specifically to address low libido, the effects can be unpredictable. Some women experience increased sexual desire, while others may notice decreased interest in sex5.

Psychological and Emotional Effects

Mood Alterations

Testosterone significantly influences mood and emotional regulation. Over a year of monthly implants, a woman in her late 30s might experience:

Mood swings that can range from mild to severe1
Increased feelings of anxiety or aggression in some cases1
Depression or changes in emotional patterns5
Racing thoughts or changes in cognition5

These psychological effects can impact relationships, work performance, and overall quality of life. For women with pre-existing mood disorders, these changes might be more pronounced or problematic.

Serious Health Risks

Cardiovascular Considerations

Long-term testosterone use in females carries potential cardiovascular risks. Although data specifically for women is limited, testosterone may increase the risk of:

Heart attack, stroke, or cardiovascular death (similar to risks in men)5
Elevated blood pressure5
Edema or swelling in the extremities5

These risks become particularly important when considering monthly implantations over a year, as cumulative exposure to testosterone increases.

Other Serious Concerns

Additional long-term risks that could develop over a year of testosterone implant use include:

Potential increased risk for hormone-dependent cancers, though research is still limited in this area4
Liver or kidney problems in susceptible individuals4
Abnormal liver function test results5

It's worth noting that testosterone therapy is contraindicated during pregnancy, so women in their late 30s who are considering pregnancy should avoid this treatment45.

Risk Factors and Monitoring Considerations

The risk of experiencing side effects increases with certain factors. Monthly implantations over a year would lead to significant cumulative exposure. Research shows that complications are more likely with:

Higher number of inserted pellets3
Increased physical activity in the first week after implantation3
Pre-existing health conditions, particularly liver, kidney, or cardiovascular issues4 5

Because of these risks, any woman receiving monthly testosterone implants should undergo regular monitoring including:

Hormone level testing to ensure levels remain within female physiological ranges
Liver function tests
Cardiovascular assessments
Regular clinical examinations for physical changes

Conclusion

Testosterone implants can provide benefits for women with certain hormonal imbalances, but monthly administration over a year would be unusually frequent and could significantly increase the risk of side effects. Most side effects are reversible with dosage reduction or discontinuation, but some changes like voice deepening may be permanent2.

While overall complication rates are relatively low (around 1% in large studies)3, the cumulative risk increases with more frequent implantation. The safest approach involves careful patient selection, maintaining testosterone within female physiological ranges, and regular monitoring for adverse effects. Women considering this therapy should have detailed discussions with healthcare providers about the potential risks versus benefits, especially for extended use over a year.

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and here's some more about not supplementing iodine yourself, next time DO A LITTLE more research before sharing your all natural remedies.

The Effects of Replacing Iodized Table Salt with Iodine Supplements

Iodine is an essential trace mineral crucial for thyroid function and overall health. While iodized table salt has been a primary vehicle for iodine delivery in many populations since the 1920s, some individuals consider eliminating salt while supplementing with iodine directly. This report examines the physiological, nutritional, and health implications of such a dietary change.

Impact on Iodine Status and Thyroid Function

Iodized salt contains small amounts of sodium iodide or potassium iodide and has been instrumental in preventing iodine deficiency disorders worldwide. When considering the replacement of iodized salt with supplements, maintaining proper iodine levels is the primary concern.

Iodine Requirements and Delivery Methods

Iodine is vital for the production of thyroid hormones, which regulate metabolism, energy production, and brain development. These hormones control essential bodily functions including blood pressure, body temperature, and heart rate1. Iodized salt was introduced in the United States in 1924 to address widespread goiter, successfully reducing its prevalence from about 30% to under 2% in Michigan within a decade4.

However, contrary to common perception, iodized salt provides only a fraction of daily iodine intake for most Americans today4. Modern dietary patterns have introduced multiple sources of iodine, including food industry practices that have incorporated iodine-based ingredients in various products since the mid-20th century.

Potential Thyroid Impact of Supplement Use

Replacing iodized salt with supplements could result in more precise control of iodine intake, but it also presents risks. The relationship between iodine intake and thyroid function follows a U-shaped curve where both deficiency and excess can cause dysfunction.

When taking supplements, there's an increased risk of consuming excessive amounts of iodine, which may lead to adverse thyroid effects including:

Hyperthyroidism (overactive thyroid), particularly in people who previously consumed insufficient iodine7
Hypothyroidism (underactive thyroid) in some cases7
Development of goiter (enlarged thyroid gland)7
Potential exacerbation of thyroid autoimmunity in susceptible individuals3

Cardiovascular and Health Benefits of Salt Reduction

Eliminating or reducing table salt while obtaining iodine from supplements could provide significant cardiovascular benefits.

Sodium Reduction Advantages

The excess sodium in the typical American diet is associated with numerous cardiovascular problems, including hypertension, stroke, heart attack, and heart failure4. Reducing salt intake by switching to iodine supplements could potentially lower these risks while maintaining iodine sufficiency.

Additionally, reducing sodium may benefit individuals with conditions requiring sodium restriction, including those with heart failure, kidney disease, or hypertension. The flexibility of using supplements allows for separation of sodium and iodine intake, which is impossible with iodized salt.

Broader Health Considerations

While cardiovascular benefits from sodium reduction are likely, salt also serves important culinary and preservation functions in food. The complete elimination of salt from the diet might affect food palatability and potentially lead to seeking other flavor enhancers, some of which may have their own health implications.

Alternative Dietary Sources of Iodine

If considering replacing iodized salt with supplements, it's worth noting that many natural food sources also provide iodine.

Natural Food Sources

Several foods contain significant amounts of iodine:

Seafood, particularly cod (99 micrograms per 3-ounce serving), tuna (17 micrograms per 3 ounces), and shrimp (35 micrograms per 3-ounce serving)6
Seaweed, especially kelp, which can provide more than the daily requirement in a small serving6
Dairy products including milk (56 micrograms per cup) and yogurt (75 micrograms per cup)6
Eggs, containing approximately 24 micrograms each6

These foods could potentially provide sufficient iodine without supplements or iodized salt, though consistency may be challenging.

Risks and Considerations of Iodine Supplementation

While iodine supplements offer a salt-free alternative for meeting iodine requirements, they come with several important considerations.

Dosage Control and Monitoring

Unlike the gradual intake from iodized salt, supplements deliver concentrated doses that require careful management. Excess iodine consumption is most commonly associated with supplement use, particularly when treating prolonged iodine deficiency7.

Very high iodine intake may cause:

A brassy taste in the mouth
Increased saliva production
Irritation of the digestive tract
Skin rashes7

Monitoring iodine status clinically has limitations, making it difficult to precisely assess individual needs and risks3. This uncertainty increases the importance of following recommended dosages when using supplements.

Individual Susceptibility Factors

The response to iodine intake varies significantly between individuals based on:

Personal medical history, especially thyroid conditions
Genetic factors affecting thyroid function and iodine metabolism
Environmental factors and previous iodine exposure3

Some individuals may be particularly vulnerable to iodine-induced thyroid disorders even at doses considered safe for the general population3. This highlights the importance of personalized approaches when considering iodine supplementation.

Conclusion

Replacing iodized salt with iodine supplements represents a viable strategy for maintaining iodine sufficiency while potentially reducing cardiovascular risks associated with high sodium intake. However, this approach requires careful consideration of proper dosing, individual health factors, and monitoring for thyroid effects.

For most individuals, a balanced approach might include moderate salt reduction, conscious inclusion of natural iodine sources in the diet, and supplements only when necessary to address specific deficiencies. Those with existing thyroid conditions or other risk factors should consult healthcare providers before making significant changes to their iodine intake method.

The transition from iodized salt to supplements should be viewed as a dietary modification requiring thoughtful implementation rather than a simple substitution, as it affects multiple aspects of nutrition and health beyond just iodine status.

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And here's one for Suboxone too,

After 15 years of using Suboxone, patients may experience several long-term side effects in addition to those commonly associated with shorter-term use. Some of the more significant long-term effects include:

Hormonal imbalances: Long-term Suboxone use can disrupt the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal hormonal system, potentially leading to adrenal insufficiency57.
Liver damage: Extended use may increase the risk of liver damage, especially in patients with pre-existing conditions like Hepatitis C15.
Emotional numbness: Many long-term users report feeling emotionally flat or disconnected, struggling to experience natural happiness or satisfaction2.
Cardiovascular issues: There's an increased risk of cardiovascular adverse events, particularly heart attacks and heart failure7.
Sleep disorders: Long-term use can lead to sleep-disordered breathing, including sleep apnea7.
Dental problems: Chronic use may contribute to poor dental health, including cavities, tooth decay, or infections57.
Chronic constipation: This side effect often becomes refractory to treatment with prolonged use7.
Hyperalgesia: Increased sensitivity to pain may develop over time7.
Immune system suppression: Long-term use can affect the body's immune response7.
Sexual dysfunction: Reduced sex hormones in both men and women can lead to infertility and sexual problems7.
Bone health issues: There's an increased risk of bone fractures with prolonged use7.

It's important to note that while these side effects can occur with long-term use, Suboxone remains a valuable tool in managing opioid dependence. Regular medical monitoring and open communication with healthcare providers are crucial for managing potential long-term effects.

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And don't forget to tell your youngest boy that you were taking opiates the entire time you were pregnant with him, that may be why him and his brother are like night and day. Especially since I knew about it and you have done nothing but add to the rumors and I know you drove up that day because I saw the "green" suv as my neighbor did which is the one my daughter drives today, yet you didn't come in or knock or anything, but when I asked you said "I don't know" and I know you did so who did you talk to outside? .....

And also who is always over at mom and dad's needing support for their problems whether it be health problems or store problems etc? while they can't even show the slightest interest in how I'm doing by calling or asking me one single time since leaving that hell hole they call a home.

I obviously bounced back but it took time and without any help or concern from my family at all.

The next incident was with the old neighbors that I used to live by who I used to work with her daughter at Buccaneer when it was open. That year the girl I had been seeing for 2 and 1/2 years just left without explanation and called the cops over emails I still have to this very day, none of which warranted a call to the police, this was about Jan. 13th, 2023. I then continued to help the neighbors for no other reason than out of the goodness of my heart. My family gave them a car that belonged to my old neighbor. I bought tires for that car, fixed the a/c, cleaned it out twice (she used the back as a trash can) and only ever expected her to keep her promise of paying me back the 300$ in small payments of 25$ a month. She showed me her true colors when I vented to her one time and the very next day she went and told the very person I vented about but I gave her chance after chance to be honest and truthful but I was met with nothing but her advances of which I told her I was not attracted to her and she used the love bombing tactic by using a few nice gestures and constant complimenting me in order to get me to give in to what she wanted which is what my ex had. Shortly after her mother had her teeth pulled and the last fact I was able to verify with my eyes that she said was that her mother's roommate got in a fight outside the apartments over what she thought was pills. I saw his face the next day and it was swollen so I know at least part of that was true. The series of next events are partly in question but the only parts I know for a fact is someone was coming into my apartment while I was asleep because of 2 things. One, I had saved 4 voice memos from her so I would never forget how badly I was treated. The last voice memo said "I was a bad friend" and was the only one I listened to at the time but later one I listened the the other's in backwards order. The next was telling me to "just put up my little cameras" which I already had not even knowing she had saw them under my bed, the next one she criticized the wood I had cut to brace her back door, and the other I can't remember what was said but those 4 messages that I had saved on every hard drive on my pc all disappered but little did they know, I knew how to search my pc in it's entirety and I found one other message I still have to this day and all she does is basically man"splain" what she thinks my problem is while she's high or on her meds. I made a huge mistake trusting her especially after her betraying my trust the first time.

Fast forward to the beginning of 2024 when I first arrived at my Mom and Dad's house after coming up with a planning a sure fire way to find out, which after carefully coming up with this plan the "friend" backed out due to being sick but the odd thing was when I showed up at my apartment then both the daughter and the mother were standing at my parking spot when it was dark, as if they knew what I was planning on doing. The other odd thing was my cameras not catching any normal activity and one of the few video's that merely caught her mother going to the trash can during the day, that I had also sent to my mother and sister, was also not on the footage which means they tampered with the cameras that were wireless and since the daughter had scoped out my apartment, they knew which app to download as well as what to do to erase certain footage or even avoid my cameras all together because they were in plain sight and the mother even stepped outside when I was putting them up.

Now after all of that ordeal, which my parents nor my grandmother would even take my side on a single bit of it and still will not explain why to this very day, their lack of explanations for so many of their actions and the fact i have proven my mother wrong so many times and yet she still will not admit fault is what I feel is not what any family member should do to another ever. During my 7 month stay at my mother's house I was physically harassed by my father 2 and nearly 3 times, one time he threatened to call the police but when i waited outside for them to come he said "call them yourself" and also said "he would gladly do 3 months for obstruction." Which brings me to another point, I asked for a lawyer and my phone records in November of 2023 and I distinctly remember my mother saying my attorney, Michael Robbins, was in Belgium once which means she spoke with him at some point but he never spoke with me one single time even thou I called his office 2 times and stopped by his office twice as well, and even used his website to contact him many other times so if she told him anything that steered him away from giving me a consult that would be obstruction of justice.

After getting my phone records I noticed a few things but one of them was that I talked to my aunt at least an hour once a week even when I was going thru all of that in 2023, so even thou I was under an amount of stress no one should ever have to handle I was still able to listen to my aunt and her stories, which I believe to be true, had a big impact in how I see my family's pattern of behaviors to this very day. The lack of validation, empathy, and narcissistic tendencies of my parents and even the dismissiveness of my grandmother are behaviors I have pointed out to them over and over again yet they never even try to change. So even thou I know this isn't the definition of insanity but continuing to treat someone the same way and expecting different results makes no logical sense whatsoever.

Now, let's take a trip back to before I even met Taylor......

I was working at the Buccaneer as usual and I got a message from her on facebook asking about a job, which I just shrugged off. Then I received another message asking again and I said to just put in an application but after the 3rd message I told her to just talk to dad sometime before 10 which finally got her the job. It didn't take her long to start messaging me after getting a job at my dad's restaurant. Most nights she would just complain about her boyfriend going out with his friends and drinking, and how much she disapproved of him drinking and driving due to her father and his past. After about 2 weeks of chatting on Facebook with me doing most of this listening and a bit of flirting etc. she somehow talked me into coming over, I do remember saying "I just live 30 seconds away" in a chat. All this was before she was even married so I went against my better judgement and went over there.....this was roughly the end of 2020 to 2021 time frame.

before I present the research done on the long term effects of gaslighting someone, Taylor should know I remember you saying on that one video call that your bi-polar medication was zamzar, and that you were vaping, and that your kids were at their dad's. Yet you wanted me to ask you about a FAKE medication? You never answered the few questions I asked you in notes, which was "How did you get better?" which obviously you got worse instead of better, and "Why did you leave?" which I also know was just because you were done using me just like I always thought. So honestly I don't need answers to those questions anymore, and I tried to warn you, but ask yourself this: What did I do for you in the beginning when we first started chatting years ago? LISTENED to you complain about your boyfriend at the time, and what did I also try to convince you NOT to start?.... but you did anyways. You wanted to have your cake and eat it too, so I really hope you are happy now, because YOLO and I'd be willing to bet on this part, anytime you get in a disagreement with your husband he brings up the past to win the argument and if were me I would just forgotten it or let it go, as long as you were honest with me just as I said even during the 2 and 1/2 years we were "friends". I didn't even try to control you then or suspect anything, I was happy but that was only a facade.

The "Ongoing Struggle" I still have to this very day....

What I've seen in society and My Family

that I know to be true

My Family problems and the simple ways they could do better

Side Effects of Testosterone Implants in Females in Their Late 30s Over a One-Year Period

Physical Side Effects

Skin and Hair Changes

Voice and Body Changes

Implantation Site Reactions

Hormonal and Reproductive Effects

Menstrual Changes

Sexual Function Changes

Psychological and Emotional Effects

Mood Alterations

Serious Health Risks

Cardiovascular Considerations

Other Serious Concerns

Risk Factors and Monitoring Considerations

Conclusion

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The Effects of Replacing Iodized Table Salt with Iodine Supplements

Impact on Iodine Status and Thyroid Function

Iodine Requirements and Delivery Methods

Potential Thyroid Impact of Supplement Use

Cardiovascular and Health Benefits of Salt Reduction

Sodium Reduction Advantages

Broader Health Considerations

Alternative Dietary Sources of Iodine

Natural Food Sources

Risks and Considerations of Iodine Supplementation

Dosage Control and Monitoring

Individual Susceptibility Factors

Conclusion

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